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weekend & plans

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 17:28:13 GMT

this weekend was pretty fantastical
but starting monday hell -__- im way 2 friggn sick -___-
n' my dad took another week off OMFFFFFFFG i seriously just want 2 die when i have 2 be around him this much i can barely breath or walk and he made me go out n' cut fence wire 4 a bush n' i like ended up cutting my hand up like he couldnt take a couple seconds of his fucking day 2 help out hes been yelling @ me about other stupid ass chores n' about the dog i cant fucking wait till he starts working 4 BOEING or w/e the fuck that places is called but once he works there he should be gone more friggin thank the lord -_-
ughh... hopfulling ill be over this by thur cause im gonna go 2 my grandmas n' help out n' then scan some pics with me n' my granddad (he died last monday) :/ im still not really okay with that
then again i dont really wanna cope with that... + my grandma has been talking about death which im even further okay with then again i dont think ill ever be okay with her not being around :/
alot of my friends have been 2 busy 2 really talk 2 or i just want 2 have a good time n' for get about things for awhile... so i havent really talked about it but @ this point i dont really care talking has never really helped me
ughslkfjskl
i cant seem 2 get a job still -_- but maybe ill just nanny... i wanna start like a dog walking thing aswell but that will prob have 2 wait i dont knwo that many ppl with dogs i dono
me n' cj r gonna work on jewlery n' some other things this weekend which im excited about :] then those will go up on etsy so that should help a lil...
im gonna start studying programs n' getting really good @ them like accounting, music n' movie editing programs i've pretty much got all the adobe down all though i need 2 study more css
i have a couple sites 2 do this week which will be good 2 learn on
ughh then i have 2 job fair tomorrow tawaine wants me 2 go 2 but i dont know if ill make it sense im so sick... there was one monday n' tues aswell.. this flu is really freaking up alot of shiz... its pissing me off :/

blahh

poop

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 20:01:00 GMT

next week a have some photoshoots with some pretty awesome ppl
and im not very happy with my wardrobe....
i need to go thrifting!!!! n' ill prob have 2 borrow some friends clothes

poop....

lately

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:23:16 GMT

i've been SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPER stressed if not more -_-
+ depressed and so with that i sleep less im more sore... (yeah some how thats possible)
n' my dads been home all week n' like... 4more days 2 go -_____- its fucking HELL he only makes it worse by 09238429039230284392x ....
im behind in my finance class :[ but tomorrow i think ill be able 2 catch up... okashi ran out of food so i had 2 feed her ALOT of treats which only made her go more crazy n' want to destry cause she has no toys -_- cause shes destroyed them all 2 gotta call the vet tomorrow aswell... today i had a tattoo shop interview i was late cause mapquest is a bitch for one 2nd theres the same street name 2 blocks away from eachother -__- but i finally made it there and they where really nice n' stuff i really hope i get it =S but imma be SUPER neverous till friday... n' i need to email my work in tomorrow so they have a better chance of picking me so my work has to be REALLY GOOD -_-
uhmm... abis back which is cool then im going 2 chicago 19?or20-23?24.... uhm that should be good i really need to get some photoshoots in i REALLY need to borrow some friends clothes cause... i dont have enough for all the shoots im doing >.< uhm... i dono im just glad alot of my classes are cutting down cause i was way 2 busy b4 + trying to have a social life n' sleep just wasnt working -__- i have 2 many friends out of the country that i want 2 talk 2 which means staying up late or waking up @ unholy hours >.<

ill finish this in a bit im gonna take a nap now... 10:30pm

things i want

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 06:28:00 GMT

cause im bored n' looking online

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for ballet

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white&black-zip, M

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white - S

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but in white -M

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bluefushia

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grey

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update

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 08:06:59 GMT

so i havent really bloged in awhile b/c pretty much everything that i've been threw/ doing
uhm not so blog able or just uhm... a bad idea to be posting online
or completely boring like i've done nothing constructive really in the past how ever long weeks its been
all though classes have been okay all though i havent been to many... cause like holidays n' then they all start @ random times but i have a bunch this weekend i have a... copyrighting class & glass blowing class this weekend then next week i start ballet :]
anyways something just came up and my heart was racing 3x its normal speed T-T my heart still kinda hurts from that... but uhm i cant say y so... thats pointless...
SOOOOOOOOOO today =D i got in contact with my bestest bestest bestest friend chris who lives in london we havent talked in a yr and 3months [i think thats what he said i just know it was a bitchin long time] but ooooooh my gosh i missed him soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking much n' we webcamed n' it was so much fun he still remembers all of our inside jokes xP i missed "gay" hahahaha awww i feel so stupid causeim so overly happy and excited to have him back xP
but ya that was pretty great
but on another hand i still need a job and im gonna get my license soon i finally decided -__- i really didnt want to have to but it seems to be needed so... fun fun
uhmm.......... im gonna get back to job hunting... @ 3am >.<

so finally

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 05:37:24 GMT

i gave my mother the sheet of classes i wanna take
lots of just one day 8hour classes... but they should be good i think they will help
im taking some business classes n' some more computer classes oh snap i forgot photoraphy... n' i was gonna ad something else now i forget... hopefully ill remember it later...
but so far fer sure im taking
belly dancing -mondays
ballet&modern dance -wednesdays
yoga -saturdays
n' the GED has to change cause its the same nights as ballet n' thats just not okay... hahaha + their are alot
now that im writing this im noticing alot of flaws in what i just finished... i was really happy to ... darnit >.<
but yeah uhmmmm im kinda happy ill be doing something n' i think imma c if i can go to my grandmothers tomorrow night n' work for her so i can get my momma this sweet gift i just like found n' it was spectacular pretty much uhm yeah her bdays coming up n' stuffs... + i ment to give her a sweetshirt for christmas that she wanted but that didnt happen for some reason 0.o but maybe i wont go cause my grandma hates late notice things and might not have work so WHO KNOWS ... blahh maybe ill get my mother to drive me around part of tomrrow to do application things hmmm thad be nice i wanna job aswell...
i have lots of ideas i wanna do lots of things...

uhm so tawaine... is working on another cd n' we've sorda been talking about the cover n' how we're gonna make his own music project a little more pro n' make it get some where n' he thought up a pretty sweet album cover i guess i cant say what cause id be ruined but its pretty sweet n' i might be on the cover =o hahaha so gotta find the right photographer or maybe ill just use a friends n' do timer dono... we'll seeeeee if i have money i wanna start shooting :/
even though i dont have an amazing camera a friend asked me to take pictures of her for vallentines i think that will be pretty fun :] n' maybe ill do something sweet with those lil art project or maybe not but either way it shall be enjoied
uhmm so i think i have a couple photoshoots coming up this month with a couple friends in st.l no travel so no not willing to get lost in the cold looking for the studio issues going on im gonna make it happen
n' i have some other art project colaborations going on soon but those are gonna be more graphic n' murals
oh n' more website work imma be making lots of websites for people this yr this month i have lots of tallented friends who need them + awesome for the port :]

this year my resolution is Making things happen not just thinking them but Doing them
cause so far in life... i havent really made things happen
n' its gonna happen now
SHABAM >.>
hahahaha

curious george ^-^
bubbles!
anyways this is to long im sorry
RAMBLE

don't doubt the movements i've made and the things i have done. - my new awesome friend troy who prob got it from novel but i dont know cause i dont read enough but right now we're talking n' we've had some pretty sweet conversations >.> a whole 2 but the first was all music n' bands n' this time is novels/writers& our own stories of randomeness n' its just nice haaaa i like it
uhm anways the end again

restarting

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 05:14:40 GMT

life cause i've taken 2 yrs off of my life n' there gone n' wasted i want to start doing ALOT more
what im not exactly sure but hopefully ill figure something out
im not really happy with who i am... or where im going @ the moment im just kinda coasting n' im not really taking control... which is pretty lame

im making a list...

FUCK

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 07:28:23 GMT

i cant stop crying i just said goodbye to my lil brother
besides the fact that i wanted to cry b4 cause today was just fucking horrible :/ FUCK
i dont know how stable i would be if i didnt play rock band with joel, bill n' pat tonight which prob sounds fucking retarded... but -.- gawd WTF

IM NEVER GETING OUT OF BED i hate everything T____T im far from okay this fuckinso fdjalskjansdkf
my eyes hurt i giv eup here

CRAZYNESS

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 18:19:18 GMT

i finally finished 3 work applications =D yay!!! now i need to turn them in >.<
uhmmmmm so i was gonna do this nanny job... but now im thinking not so much sense ill be moving with in 4 months tops cause thats when my friend brit can move wooo roommies so anyways uhmmmmmm ya + like that job would take over my life cause its all FREAKING day 7-6 -____- then class then id be out like a rock... not very cool... i really hope i get a job soon b4 i cry

uhm also i've been looking @ photographer ast jobs which pay pretty damn well @ least i mean sense i like it i dono
then personal asist jobs id be good @ that -.- just alot of portfolio n' resume making freaking annoying but applications are worse its the same thing OVER N' OVER again

uhmmmmmmmmmmmmm
pretty much i need to get rid of like my whole wardrobe @ least 75% of it cause i dont wear any of it >.< so i need to go sell that stuff... uhmm
gawd this is turning into a reminder list for myself xD
im still waiting for my damn bank card to come so i can open my etsy this week I HOPE gawd...
so im kinda re doing everyones wardrobe along with mine mostly @ this point me n' tawaines but i have a list of ppl who r gonna pay me to redo their wardrobe 0.0 which is pretty damn awesome
uhmmmmmmmm
ya i dono what to really do... things are just really crazy n' this weekend jonathan leaves n' its effecting me ALOT more than it thought it would seriously everyday it just gets worse :/ blahhh friday is the last hangout thing but with family n' tawaine is gonna come 2 which will be funny hes so freaked out cause my family makes him nervous cause we make fun of eachother 24/7 which is normal but he 0.o he just never did that with his family which is un natural xD anyways uhmm ya
i need to go make like 5 mix cds >.<
then go threw clothes... clean my room... CLEAN THE YARD omg okashi keeps geting into the recycling n' riping it up n' the yard -.-' pooo
their was other stuff... i need to work on other stuff.... what was it i had something else to say
POTATOS

uhm abi goes back to chicago sat aswell sat is just not a good day except my parents will be gone like alll day ;D

uhm i guess this is it for now...

new yr =0

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 14:36:53 GMT

this new yrs was THE BEST by far new yrs i've ever had and infact i might go far as saying the best party aswell
it was pretty fucking amazing
i was dancing @ LEAST 5hours NON STOP ask anyone that was there even when other ppl wernt dancing i was still going xD
but like these after effects OMG T-T IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORE
like i need morphine serioiously EVERY muscle even some bones are sore as no other i just OMG T-T
before the party joel! jessi! Stephanie pahahaha we all look horrible n' i couldnt stop laughing
juice? >.>
joel xD again >.< Z =D
tawaine n' bill
hahahaha Z n' Joel few of the many
dancing with joel
air guitar and ukulele 0.o
JR air guitar xD
more dancing i seriously have no clue whats happening here... looks like uhm dancing n' a very worried tawaine xD
falling xD then more dancing
first try @ a group shot not very successful
group picture!
joel was pretty much holding me up/hugs in all these pictures xD
totally leaning xD

me n' cage the last known picture of the night and yes of course i was still dancing even though no one else was >.<