this weekend was pretty fantastical
but starting monday hell -__- im way 2 friggn sick -___-
n' my dad took another week off OMFFFFFFFG i seriously just want 2 die when i have 2 be around him this much i can barely breath or walk and he made me go out n' cut fence wire 4 a bush n' i like ended up cutting my hand up like he couldnt take a couple seconds of his fucking day 2 help out hes been yelling @ me about other stupid ass chores n' about the dog i cant fucking wait till he starts working 4 BOEING or w/e the fuck that places is called but once he works there he should be gone more friggin thank the lord -_-
ughh... hopfulling ill be over this by thur cause im gonna go 2 my grandmas n' help out n' then scan some pics with me n' my granddad (he died last monday) :/ im still not really okay with that
then again i dont really wanna cope with that... + my grandma has been talking about death which im even further okay with then again i dont think ill ever be okay with her not being around :/
alot of my friends have been 2 busy 2 really talk 2 or i just want 2 have a good time n' for get about things for awhile... so i havent really talked about it but @ this point i dont really care talking has never really helped me
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i cant seem 2 get a job still -_- but maybe ill just nanny... i wanna start like a dog walking thing aswell but that will prob have 2 wait i dont knwo that many ppl with dogs i dono
me n' cj r gonna work on jewlery  n' some other things this weekend which im excited about :] then those will go up on etsy so that should help a lil...
im gonna start studying programs n' getting really good @ them like accounting, music n' movie editing programs i've pretty much got all the adobe down all though i need 2 study more css
i have a couple sites 2 do this week which will be good 2 learn on
ughh then i have 2 job fair tomorrow tawaine wants me 2 go 2 but i dont know if ill make it sense im so sick... there was one monday n' tues aswell.. this flu is really freaking up alot of shiz... its pissing me off :/


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i've been SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPER stressed if not more -_-
+ depressed and so with that i sleep less im more sore... (yeah some how thats possible)
n' my dads been home all week n' like... 4more days 2 go -_____- its fucking HELL he only makes it worse by 09238429039230284392x ....
im behind in my finance class :[ but tomorrow i think ill be able 2 catch up... okashi ran out of food so i had 2 feed her ALOT of treats which only made her go more crazy n' want to destry cause she has no toys -_- cause shes destroyed them all 2 gotta call the vet tomorrow aswell... today i had a tattoo shop interview i was late cause mapquest is a bitch for one 2nd theres the same street name 2 blocks away from eachother -__- but i finally made it there and they where really nice n' stuff i really hope i get it =S but imma be SUPER neverous till friday... n' i need to email my work in tomorrow so they have a better chance of picking me so my work has to be REALLY GOOD -_-
uhmm... abis back which is cool then im going 2 chicago 19?or20-23?24.... uhm that should be good i really need to get some photoshoots in i REALLY need to borrow some friends clothes cause... i dont have enough for all the shoots im doing >.< uhm... i dono im just glad alot of my classes are cutting down cause i was way 2 busy b4 + trying to have a social life n' sleep just wasnt working -__- i have 2 many friends out of the country that i want 2 talk 2 which means staying up late or waking up @ unholy hours >.<

ill finish this in a bit im gonna take a nap now... 10:30pm

so i havent really bloged in awhile b/c pretty much everything that i've been threw/ doing
uhm not so blog able or just uhm... a bad idea to be posting online
or completely boring like i've done nothing constructive really in the past how ever long weeks its been
all though classes have been okay all though i havent been to many... cause like holidays n' then they all start @ random times but i have a bunch this weekend i have a... copyrighting class & glass blowing class this weekend then next week i start ballet :]
anyways something just came up and my heart was racing 3x its normal speed T-T my heart still kinda hurts from that... but uhm i cant say y so... thats pointless...
SOOOOOOOOOO today =D i got in contact with my bestest bestest bestest friend chris who lives in london we havent talked in a yr and 3months [i think thats what he said i just know it was a bitchin long time] but ooooooh my gosh i missed him soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking much n' we webcamed n' it was so much fun he still remembers all of our inside jokes xP i missed "gay" hahahaha awww i feel so stupid causeim so overly happy and excited to have him back xP
but ya that was pretty great
but on another hand i still need a job and im gonna get my license soon i finally decided -__- i really didnt want to have to but it seems to be needed so... fun fun
uhmm.......... im gonna get back to job hunting... @ 3am >.<